WORST FEELING

The worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone in the same exact second, and it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. when you want everything and nothing at the same time.when you want to let go, but you keep holding on. when you want to move on, but you're stuck right where you started. when feelings come and go, and you can't decide what you want. It's so hard when you want to see that one person everyday, and when you do, you don't know what to say. when you have so many things to say, but you don't know where to start. when deep down inside you know if you lose this, it's gone and it will never come back. when you know they are right beside you, but yet they are so far away. when you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. it's so hard to think back to how things used to be, and look at "now" and realize that things are different, and they will never be the same. you tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.